I
miss
you!
Navigations above *points up*
I was born to tell you I love you...
I'm sorry I took so long...
for my baby;
Lady of perfection,
Do not be afraid.
You are not alone.
You have me to share your bed.
Lay the bed and set it up,
In crimson or in white.
Lay you down as so do I,
In brilliant blinding light.
If death comes for you.
Let it take me too.
Without you there is no life.
For I have life in you.
For some strange reason... today was a very... tiresome day. Everything about it was just... monotonous. If thats how you spell it. To the point of excruciating existance. No im not over dramatizing. Somehow, today just did not appeal to me. I didn't have Theatre with Reza today cos he's off somewhere or other but i did go to college anyway to have practices and stuff... I dunno la... Today simply just SCREAMED "boring!" at the top of its lungs. On top of that, i just didn't feel like my usual self. Strange isn't it?
I literally dragged my feet walking around college, think to myself during my BM class, drag my ass back home and online, then i just lost all energy or any reason to stay awake so i found myself lying asleep on my bed when i woke. Brendan came over today. That was probably the only bit of good that happened today. Worked on some songs, i think my voice is coming back. One can only hope. My voice hasn't been exactly up to bearable standards lately... and I seem to have forgotten alot of songs and harmonies i should know by heart.
My poetic flow has deteriorated so i must get myself back on the poetic track, at least it'll be something productive instead of just sitting around. I've looked through some of my better poetic work and now i wonder how a person like me ever wrote them. Sure they're not poetic gold, but in my eyes, they're complete levels above me. Tried writing a day or two ago... Honestly, nothing came out. I mean got la, but nothing i really liked, except a song. It's ok i guess. A very blatant song, no hidden meaning, no hint. Its just there. Its one of those read it and you'll definately understand kinda things.
How do you know when you like someone?? I mean not the simple, i like you, but i don't like him kinda thing. I'm not talking abt prefered company. I'm talking about "i'm interested in you" kind of "like you". How can you tell? I haven't had something like that for some time to be honest... I miss it. I can't tell now... and its just driving me insane.